Happiness

"Happiness is a mental or emotional state of well-being defined by positive or pleasant emotions ranging from contentment to intense joy"

Happiness is when you know you're finding yourself. Happiness is when you start mapping out priorities and you start to realise who you really are and who you really want to be. I spent last year at the opposite end of the spectrum from happiness. I spent last year drowning in misery and wishing I was someone else, wishing I could take back decisions I had made.

I've spent the last 3 months being happier than I have ever been. Not even content, just happy. I started to experience snippets of the life I want to have. I started doing things I love to do and enjoying myself, sparing the opinion of others. I've started to realise that we are on this earth only once, we only get one shot at this life, so why spend it so wrapped up in other peoples. I spent almost a year studying for a psychology exam which I bombed a few weeks ago because I stayed out until 3am the night before, and I'm okay with that. Because if anything, it taught me that you can fail at things, so if you're gonna invest your time into something it may as well be something you are having fun doing. I got to visit Australia and do things with one of my best friends that I would never have dreamed of doing, things that probably helped me decide who I want to be as a person. I got to travel around Europe with some of my best friends and make memories that will definitely last a life time. I stopped over thinking. Don't think about what is going to happen tomorrow, or next week. Don't think about what happened yesterday, or last month. Live for now. Right now. You are content, you are happy. Don't spoil it thinking about consequences.

Last year I felt embarrassed about things I had done and things I had said and I spent a lot of time wishing I could take back things. This year I've spent time with people who have showed me it's okay to be me. It's okay to sometimes snort when I laugh on front of boys, apparently they even find it cute. It's okay to pass out drunk at 10pm (kinda). It's completely okay to make a decision that you need to do to make YOU happy, even if it disrupts others. It's okay to like someone you shouldn't, because they make you laugh until your stomach hurts and you feel yourself around them. It's completely okay to dance like crazy, even when you know you can't dance. It's okay to do cartwheels down the corridor of a 5 star hotel. It's okay to walk around in your PJ's in a 5 star hotel ... (Jess). It's okay to break a car headlight cause hey, it makes good memories (Steph). And it's okay to leave people behind who are holding you down. It's okay to do stuff that makes YOU happy. Don't be scared, don't be embarrassed, don't feel guilty. Cause I'll tell you something... Happiness feels good :)