Year Of Growth.

Okay so 2014 is almost over. Everyone is making their plans for NYE, and jotting down the same resolutions as every other year : lose weight, save money, blah blah blah. For 2015 I'm only going to have two resolutions : Care less about what people think and be happy. 2014 has been the best year of my life so far. It has been the quickest year of my life. It has been the most eventful year of my life. It has been my happiest year but also my saddest. However, most of all, it is the year where I have learned so much more about life. Compared to what I knew at this point last year, I now know everything. But compared to what I'm going to know at this point next year... I now know nothing. This is something I wish i had learned a lot earlier on in life... that we continue to learn and we continue to grow. Last December, when I was my naive 16 year old self, I thought I knew everything about life. I thought I was this smarty pants teen who had love all figured out and held the key to happiness. I have never been so wrong.
In 2014 I learned that people get jealous. People get jealous and they try to bring you down any way they can. I learned that maybe in school you were only friends with those people because you saw them 5 times a week. I learned how to deal with being alone for a while, I learned how to meet new people that make me happy, I learned how to gather enough confidence to go for job interviews and I learned about trust, lust and hurting. These are all also things I wish i knew earlier.
Back to my resolutions: Care less about what people think. So just like some lies are better left uncovered, some truths are better left untold. (This is where shit gets cheesy deep). So this year, among the growing and learning, I managed to get myself into this situation. Lets call it Situation A. And this situation literally turned my life on it's head. I had just left school at the time, I was spending literally almost every single day with my non-school friends. But this situation changed all that, before it was even over it made me lose the relationship I had with one of my best friends. It made us lose contact for a while, and even when we started speaking again it was never the same. It made me start talking to anew group of girls who I now also consider my closest friends. It made me learn how to defend myself, it taught me about who to trust, how to trust and how to be trusted. It taught me that guys are dickheads (which I already knew). Most of all it taught me how to lie. This is where my 2015 resolution grew from. I learned how to lie, so that people wouldn't think badly of me. So people wouldn't judge me. So people wouldn't try to be my friend for false reasons. I learned to lie so well to the point that I started to believe it myself. But also to the point where I would lie in my bed wide awake at 5am worrying that maybe someone would figure it out if I slipped up. I got myself so worked up over this, I let it ruin friendships and all because I cared too much about what people think. So in 2015, that's not going to happen anymore :)
Resolution 2: Be Happy. Sounds easy right? Well everyone knows it's not quite as simple. But why not? Why can't it be that simple? This year I'm gonna give it a try! Im going to stop over thinking things that I can't do anything about. I'm going to stop stressing over decisions that dont need to be made for another few years. Im just going to try and free myself from as much negativity as possible and BE HAPPY. I think my 2 resolutions link together quite well. If I care less about what people think then I will be happier. As well as, if I'm happy in myself I will care less about what people think.
I hope all you guys can try and have resolutions this year that isn't to do with wealth or physical appearance, but how you can improve yourself in other ways that will make your life easier and happier all round :)